The first poem i've written in 4 years

I’ve lost my touch you see,
The median I could control
Now controls me.

My mind that I thought I have mastered it seems
Has found a way,
To be the master of me

My thoughts that I thought were my own at long last
Have turned into the thoughts of
The well forgotten past

My logic has no power over this cruel
Unwelcome revisited and
Terrible chore

Of finding my way, once again
To believe
That things will turn out the right way for me

My brain got in the way
Of my progress
Thus far

And now I’ve gone back,
Straight back to
The start

Let’s hope
I can find my confused way
thru this thus far unbeatable maze

My thought have been
not so nice to me
these days

Perhaps I can force them
For once
To behave